New name (again...)

Changing my name has become a bad habit.

EEL sounds more gender neutral than KIKI.

I haven't succeeded much in life. You're supposed to go to college, get a career, get married, dress correctly, make phone calls, pop out babies, eat at the dinner table, smile for the photograph, why do you change your name so much if you don't want us following you, why does everyone online get to know that but I don't, he just sounds so sad when he talks, I would never do that, look what he does all day, you never smiled or blinked, just sounds so hateful, what's wrong with this country, yayo. Saying that I might feel differently is seen as mentally unstable, unnatural, a threat to those who have those ambitions, etc...

EEL KILLJOY